Let see, I've been drawing a lot for my clients and also for my portfolio sakes, but unfortunately most of it restricted to distribute elsewhere other than under the company's name. *sigh*

oh well, my style kept changing, yet I've not found my own original style. ughh!! patience, self! patience......


I'm such a lazy bum bum. lol


priority no.1:
must.... reducing my socializing activity for god sake!!! hedonism is not good, you guys!

priority no.2:
reducing my socializing activity .... again. -_-

priority no.3:
kill my laziness. For those who know the weapon to demolish this bastard, please do tell. ha ha ha ha .... no, seriously.



neeways, thank you for the favorites, watches, or for just even looking around to my so-not-update gallery.

till then~


PS: do not believe anything you read in the description below the journal's title.

So, here's the thing.

Some people (real life and online) were asking me how did I use photoshop CS to coloring my drawings. They were asking questions that I didn't even understand what the questions were all about.
They thought I was some kind a photoshop expert or something.

Well, here's the truth.



I'm not. My photoshop skill pretty much basic if not VERY.
What I've done on it were just brushing, burning, dodge, smudging, adding multiple layers, adding text.
That's it.


I don't even understand what my ~AreYoU try to teach me on masking here.


I wish I could learn more about photoshop (or painter) techniques more professionally, but so far I've only learned from any online tutorials out there, which I only understand half of it, instead of learning properly in some kind of course or from book.



That's all what I want to tell.
Sorry to disappoint any of you. ._______.;

I hate my report!








nothing else to write.
I might post something, just for the sake distracting myself from my report. *sighs*

I can't believe I'm saying this. But I'm so in deep trouble right now, it stressed the hell out of me. So I cant even bother to draw something other than in random textbook when I got bored.

Wednesday.... If it's been decided and if ... it's not doing as I'm hoping to be, then.... well Imma kill myself!!!!!!!
Kay that's too much, but this is matter of life and death to me.
Why am I telling this here, I don't know..... Probably I just can't stand to keep it by myself anymore longer.

On the other hand, I'm surprised my Uruha drawing got some lovin. xD
I was almost scrapped it, but .. yeah well it's alright now.
It was nothing surprised everytime I checked my dA messages and my Gackts drawing being faved (it's always been that way) , so everytime I saw ppl faving my other stuff it's always overwhelming.
So thank you very much. m(_ _)m


Who am I talking to anyway? It's not like people would be reading this.
So not in positive thinking attitude right now..........

I shouldn't finish my drawing!!!
Instead I should of working on my final report.
But I usually draw like mad, just for the sake distracting myself from work..........

Aaaaaggghhh it's 2:33 AM already!!!
I only have couple hours to sleep (or not!).

I want to post my (long time no draw) Ayu, but.... in some part I'm embarassed.
It's been too long since the last time I drew her.
It's like, "is this even her?? or is this the singer from some visual kei band????"

Ayu turned into bisshies (pretty boys)....yup


gaaaaahhhhh!!!
I just want to rant rant rant rant!!
I shouldnt rant here, no? But my wordpress is not fully fixed yet, so.... -_-

Anywaaayy... sorry for the messy grammar.
Can't be fcuk to type proper english now.


off to go~